the truth that u leave

经过某个朋友的部落格。。
听到这首歌。。这个音乐。。
好听。。好温柔。。

想起你的琴声。。
还悠扬的飘入我耳际。。
好感触。。

actually...what is the truth that u leave?

untitle

dun know put what as a title...
i happy and feel satisfied with what i having rite now...
my life....
i know how shld i go on le...
i'm growing up a bit more le...

from now on...
i want to live wif no blame...
i want to live wif no regret...
i want to live wif what i want...

somethng i dun nid it..
somethng i want it so much...

and i know....

what i want...
i can hv it by myself...
what i no nid....
dun care le...

if really is like that d...
then let it be like that baa....


P/S: is ok if u dun understand this...is totally for myself...
but i think my sis can understand it very well...=P

haha...finish exam d..

YEAH!!!!YEAH!!!!
I FINISH EXAM D!!!!
1st thing i want to do...sleep kao kao...
2nd thing i want to do is sleep kao kao too...
3rd thing i wantto do is still slepp kao kao...
haha....
i so so so happy!!!!
YEEEAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!

bloody day

finally learn bout blood taking la....hehe
so excited yet so scary
coz lecturer say...hv to practise on each other!!!!
lolx....actually i quite scare of needles...
maybe bcoz also kena cucuk when i m young....
so quite scary when listen to that...
haha...but finally i kena cucuk 3 times...
so i thnk i wont scared of that anymore...
hehe...



A memorable for my hand


the 1 who I cucuk is the 1 who cucuk me


our blood....1 of it is mix alrdy....another 1 is mine

miss home...

i dun know why...
started to homesick
i come KL for 2yrs...
this 1st time....
i miss home a lot
i miss mummy..i miss her hand...that always hold me gentlely when i fall
i miss bin bin..who always make me laugh when i unable to smile..
i miss chou zhu..who will always hug me when i nid it so much..
i so regret that i didnt cherish that at all when i have it..
and now..everythings i hv to face myself...
every tough way i hv to gone through by myself...ALONE...
i want to go home..i want to hide inside my little blanket..
sleep nicely...cry nicely...
i want home..
i want my brother....
i want my mummy...
i want daddy..
i dun want in this stupid f***ing world..
so complicated..
every 1...altot how close r u...
u wont know who is enemy....who is fren...
except family...
the only 1 that support u...
NO OTHERS!!!!!!

come bck and nvr turn bck

i know the title is really confusing...
plz forgive me as my english is really not good...paiseh...:P
ok...
whoever got view my facebook know that i going bck to the busy apple again...
busy apple?
my fren know me in sem 2 is busy until which extend....
no time to sleep...
after class is working...
8am go out...12 am reach home...cant find me in hostel except i sick or exam
lolx....
in sem 3...
everone in my house is so surprised that i at home direct after class..
"apple...kenapa u kat sini?""tak keluar kah?"
haha...dun know answer how many time d...
n now...they will have to ask another question..
"...,mana apple pergi??""tak jumpa nya satu hari pun..."
haha..serios...i have ignore lots of thing in this sem...
bcoz of the unusual changes of this sem...
sudden posting...sudden this...sudden that...
untill i hv no time to plan for my stuff....
n now...
i done my planning...
so...busy apple is come bck d...
fren...i will miss u all always..^^
love u all..^^

令我流泪的音乐

梦中的婚礼。。
应该会弹琴的朋友都听过。。。
而我。。今天第一次听。。
流泪了。。。
也不懂为什么。。
好哀伤的旋律。。
好伤心的曲子。。。
然而。。也透露着某种心情。。
某种渴望。。。
我无法把那种感觉形容出来。。。

我此刻的心情很复杂。。
也不懂如何形容。。
很感动。。是唯一我可以口述的形容词。。。

frendship

is thr any frenship can last forever?
is thr any fren that really dun mind to help u when u needed?
is thr any 1 can b thr when u need a shoulder to cry?
is thr any1 to share when u r happy?
is thr any 1 who can really share secret n nvr spread it?
is thr any 1 who still will remember u after busy for a day?
when fren got bf/gf will them still will spend time wif u?

and actually....
what a fren mean?


every 1 need fren...
but what a fren mean?
to share ?
to care ?
or to use ?

past few hours

sien n alone in classroom...thinking n flash back what happen few hours ago...
ERM...what i hv done...
think think think.................................................!!!
why seem like nothing...lolx...
SERIOUS!!!!
i hv done nothing!!!!!
after class go breakfast wif siew lee...
after that get the news -class cancelled...
then bck to class...
n start facebook-ing...
then makan again with "family"
then come bck...
sing sing play play n now....
bloging....
lolx....what a good way or WASTE of 4hrs...
good laa...when exam coming then shout for God laa...mummy laa..daddy laa...
lolx....what a small apple that really do thing follow mood....
better hv a change on it....lolx.....
^(.(..).)^----look like me laa....lazy apple...lolx

i m going to 20

lolx...
think think...
in 2month time..
i will b going in 20...
OMG...when i juz reliase this..
i really really surprise n shock...
i cant accept....
i going to 20...n i always tell myself that i still hv lots of time but actually i m not...
my goodness...
hv to think bout my future seriously d...
no play play anymore.....

apple n fren

really miss all fren that long time nvr contact....
many reason that nvr contact...
some of them go oversea d..
some of them busy n wanna contact them also cannot..
some of them is after quarrel..then lost contact
some of them refused to contact me coz of some reason....
lolx...
actually apple really miss u all....
apple is a gal that really need fren..
fren..
for apple..is really important..
apple like to go out wif fren...
chatting wif fren...
but some of them are really lost contact after some reason/incident happen..
lolx...
why muz be like that geh?
apple feel so down/unhappy/lost(whatever..dunno how to describe that feeling)

apple want to clarified something....
apple with b fren to every 1..
no wonder u r my ex or i reject u b4 or quarrel or other stuff....
apple juz dun want to lost fren after a change i s status or anything....
lolx....

i love guitar...

lolx...
recently addicted quite serious to musical instrument...
dun know why also....
i like piano d most...but it v hard to learn...
so learn guitar 1st loo...
walao...
after i play only i know guitar can play like that...
so good...
so now... i love guitar...
but still prefer piano..
lolx...
piano is my dream...but still cant get anyone to teach me yet...

ok..now i crazy wif guitar....
i play on saturday more than 3 hrs...
on sunday ard 2 hrs..(coz got volleyball)
on monday ard 5 hrs
now my fingers cant feel anything except pain when typing or pressing..
lolx...
i dun know is that every beginner will b like that...
or i too crazy inside d...
lolx...somemore exam on wednesday...
think think tomorrow cant play d...
exam is more important...
Thx for my guitar trainer...Ah yan(come bck from england d oo)
Qi soon...n Ling...who translate my song in chord with so much effords....thx^^

my life...

these day really think alot..
about my life...
my future...
what i should do...
what i shouldnt..
where is my limit
what should i limit
lots of question run through my mind...
lot n lots of stuff that i dun know n dun want to tell any 1 except my dear God...
is not i refused to tell
is not i want to hide from u all...
i just dun know how to express..
maybe like the word say today...
when yr mind is peace...yr body is free from anything...n silent..
u will only able to say or express out what u think...what u want..
and think think what u should do...
let God settle for u...let God listen to u...
let yr spirit close to God...
let God listen to u..help u...
Let's pray to God...
my dear Lord in heaven...
plz do listen to my prayer..
plz let my mind free from those are bad..
plz do let my spirit close to u...listen to u...
plz to guide me along this hard way...
oh Lord...
thx for always be wif me when i need some 1 so much
thx for always listen to my complaint...
lead me in my way...help me in my life..n let me see yr wonderful power..
oh Lord..plz do forgive what i hv wrongly done...
plz do save me for dropping to hell..
plz do forgive me
i m sorry Lord..
for hurting u so much...
for my wrong doing...
Oh Lord..
plz forgive me...
this prayer is pray on Lord name...
Amen...

random

juz cant sleep is this cool midnight..
come n dunno write what...
y i cant sleep?
coz thinking too much?
i m thinking...
shld i wear bck my mask ?
or juz b the real apple?
what happen today is juz nothing much...
but i juz confused..
n keep going ard the qt...
feel like in a deep ocean...
no ppl can listen althought how loud i m shouting....
haiz...
what i can say is...
life will b nvr b easy....

long long pasar malam....^^

so long in KL...1st time go pasar malam...
hehhe^^
heard tat is the longest pasar malam in KL oo...hehe^^
Along the way...
the traffic is so smooth untill my fren say nvr hv that b4...
haha...
maybe bcoz i go maa..
so everybody also give me a way laa..:P

when reach thr...i c c the length on the pasar malam...
n think think about my kampung pasar malam...
it maybe x10 longer or than that...
d car parking along the road also a rd 1 km...
so huge...>.<
i think if 1 car i ppl...
in the pasar sure hv more than 500 ppl loo..
LOLX >.<

ok...in d pasar malam...
u hv to walk like a crab...
seriously...if dun hv the 'big man' open d way for me...
i dun know m i able to walk though d pasar or not...
haha^^
anyway...it's a very nice experience..a very good day..
haha...since so long in Kl also nobody bring me thr..
now i know how is d longest pasar malam look like...
hehe^^

末日之预言

今天去人生讲堂。。
末日之预言。。
末日。。人人都怕。。像征着死亡的降临。。
现在的预言说。。2012。。世界将毁灭。。
而最大的原因是。。核子炸弹。。
如今地低下。。有大约十万颗核子炸弹。。
科学家们都在担心。。如果不懂那一天。。
那十万颗导弹被挖出来。。发射。。
这地球。。完了。。万物。。也完了。。

大家想想。。核子导弹。。是谁发明的？
科学家。。
现在。。预言世界灭亡是因为导弹的。。又是谁？
也是我们口中伟大的科学家。。
科学家。。在平凡人眼里。。是天才。。
而这群天才。。
竟然在害怕自己所发明的东西会害死这地球。。
害死自己。。
然而。。却一点办法也没有。。

我在想。。
他们在发明导弹的时候。。
有没有想到这一点？
还是。。已经给自己的私欲蒙蔽了双眼？

2 day of suffering dinner..

sweat laa...2 day cant eat my dinner well...
1st day...go to mamak...ordered a normal food...
HOKKIEN MEE...
but is with a unusual taste...
never eat a hokkien mee that is that bad...
GOSSSSHHH....its seriously...
dun have any taste except extremely salty..
dun hv any smell except d jian shui wei...
walao..cant tahan..
somemore nic d got worm on d prawn...
2nd order got hair pulak...
haiz....

COz of the 1st day experience..
bot dare to go mamak d...
so go pool side cafe...
b4 tell d story...
wanna to ask everybody...how long u all wait for a burger b4..
D longest...
Got d answer??
and now read my story...
i hv ordered a NORMAL CHICKEN BURGER at 2015hrs...
And the food serve at 2110hrs....
OMG....
what laa..if nice then nvrm laa..
when it serve...
everything is cold d...
even d french fries ......
haiz...
but is not crowded at all...
how can b wait so long...
aiyo....
waste my time..

CANT TAHAN WITH THIS D LAA...
BETTER GO OUT AND EAT...

yoyo....driving for 1st time

haha...
after driving exam..
1st time driving...
and in a big car..
mutsibishi 4x4 storm...
walaoye...
somemore a experienced driver,speeder (my daddy laa) sitting bside me..
damn kan cheong loo...
but finally also pass d laa..
haha..^^

i blur bout my life n my future..

what is life?
what is future?
is that no future then no life?
or no life then no future?

many thing happening this weeks..
sick..
broke up...
quarrel wif fren...
and another guy that coming up in my life..
everything is like in a mess...
but actually it come 1 by 1..
apple have been lost...
dun know what to do...
dun know what she want..

is that a conflict time that when a girl start to change to a woman?
apple is lost..
sound like d ppl in mirror is not her
she like dun know herself is which kind of ppl...
she is mature?she is immature?
she love him?or she juz want somebody to company when alone?
she ready for her life?she not ready yet?
what laa...
APPLE BLURRED D...

siew lee 20th birthday

haha...15 /09/09
going home early to prepare a surprise..
for her..LIM SIEW LEE..
altot it not really a beautiful 1..
but it is Apple best creation d...
(apple can failed in act d)
haha..
speak so much also dun know what apple have done..
see picture laa.....
all wishes from fren.... cake..

buddhist youth fellowship game

ya..
on the last sunday..i went for it..althought i not really feel well..
seem like nothing can stop me from volleyball..^^

on that day..
every 1 is so excited..haha..early in the morning..
keep thinking how d slogan should be..haha..
normally i go for match i will only sleep early in morning..
but they are so surprising that there are going for a match..
and their spirit is really good^^
when reach there...
surprisingly that competition also got door gift..
haha..nevermind..it is free..
as my match is in afternoon..
so..i just help around in the basketball match as there have not enough staff..
and the poor guy have to record n wrote the marks somemore be the time keeper also..
haha..so help him loo...^0^


after that...lunch...
it is free also..
got gu lou yu somemore...haha..
my favourate^^
and they pre meal prayer is a bit out of my expectation but is good to follow...hehe^^


AND..
finally my match come...
when warm up..
i saw somebody v familiar..
MY GOD...
why they are here!!!!!
aiyo..just a fellowship game...
suddenly pop out d selangor team pula..
sien diao...
but different group..
didnt match with them..
dun know is fortune or unforfune..
haha...
finally my team got 3rd prize..
n SJBA got overall 3rd prize..
Good result!!
keep it on!!
my team....
we play v hard...
thx for my dearest leng zai photographer take so many nice photo for us..

Bad luck..haizzzzz T_T

03/09/09
A memeorable day...
This morning..
i discovered d stomach cramp again after 6 yrs it didnt come n find me..
sweat..
pain pain pain...
n chocolate would be d oni cure..
as a result..a lot of chocolate i ate..
n d wallet got to get slimmer..

In the afternoon..
we go n observe doctor doing procedure..
D procedure is so rarely in ward..
n we r so excited to see it...
BUT.....
when half way go of procedure..
my fren was get fainted..
fortunately..a nurse able to catch her..
if not..
i might b have to say bye bye wif her forever..
haiz...

In the night..
i tot everything is going not smooth today..
volleyball--my best fren..would help me to gain back something good loo..
Unfortunately..
it mood aslo not good today..
N injured me indirectly...
It just fly btw WH n me..n both of us langgar each other..
BAAAAAANNNNNGGGGG!!!!!
he head bang on my eye...
my eye got swelling...
n got a natural purple black eye shadow ..
obviously..
i cant go work d
if not patient with MI or without MI also will heart attack..
(coz they tot they see ghost)
N finally..
i have to stay back alone in holiday..to replace my duty..
haiz..what a bad day

A 20yrs old boy

In this silent night,
i sudden remember a 20 yrs old boy that i take care on before...
He was came in cause of terminal bone cancer..
At that time...i was in shock when i see a such young boy..
lie on bed with closed eyes..restrained hands..
And..without a leg...
He look so young..
but..
at the same time..
He is so helpless..innocent..


20yrs old...
The brilliant moment in life..
people is chasing their dreams..
searching their perfect partner..
just going to start their life..
just got to know how the world really look like..
but..
the poor 20yrs old boy..
just can lie on the bed..
and put his life on living machine..tubings..
wandering in the brink of death..


why?why is my son..
this is the question that his mum ask always..
but..
There is no people have an answer for that..
Once i pass by his room..i heard his mum crying and say..
"Oh dear..please wake up and talk to mummy..don't sleep so long..mummy miss u so much.."
My tears is running down my face..
silent...

I am thinking..
He is 20..
And I am a girl that reaching 20..
He has his dream..but he got no chance to work it out..
I have dreams too.. but am i try my best to achieve it?
He like basketball..
I like volleyball..
And i have a perfect body to play for it but he only can do that in his dreamland..


He seem like got nothing..but he fighting for his life..
I have everything..but am i cherish it?
Am i really live my life to the max?
Am i fight for a better life?

ARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

very MOODY recently...

CANT TAHAN the life like this ANYMORE!!!!!!

why everytime plan nicely d n got to change again and again!!!!!!

Everything is become so UNORGANIZED and from BAD to WORSE!!!!!

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY????????!!!!!!!!!!!

if really no change for this...

better i NOT join u all ANYMORE!!!!!!!

EASON'S HERE!!!!!

1st time go concert...
1st getting so excited..
since 10/08/09..
everyday..
i m count down..
6more day..

5 more day..

4 days..

3 days..

2 days..

1 days...

FINALLY!!!

HE'S HERE!!!

eason's moving on stage 26
sunway lagoon surf beach


ming ming n me

my beauty diary..

our make up artist..Mr.Isaac Hong..


our family have a make up today!!!
everybody look amazing...
kim..hannah..engina n me...we all look different!!!

OUR　ＦＡＭＩＬＹ！！！！！ｎｉｃｅ　ｎｉｃｅ　ｎｉｃｅ

不速之客。。美美的。。

06/08/2009。。0100hrs
一个累坏了的夜晚。。。
在要关灯的那一瞬间。。。
突然。。
“他”。。来了。。
一个美美的蝴蝶。。。

最后一次

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

quarrel???

aiyo..little couple quarrel d? dun like that laa..
see...still want sms each other..
haha

至：美女（雪绮），帅哥（洧弘），大哥哥（敦豪）

“哈咯。。”
这都是我们第一次见面时说的话。。
转眼间。。在几个月内。。
我们啊。。又要分开了。。
为了我们的未来。。

第一次看到美女时。。一年前吧。。
我一个人坐在排球场旁那蓝色长凳上。。
兴奋得等着打排球。。
旁边的一群陌生人中。。有个个子小小的。。
黑色长卷发。。笑着走过来。。
"halo..r u waiting for d volleyball too?"..
"my name is ellen..nice to meet u.."..
当时的我。。还在想。。怎么一个漂亮的女孩要把自己放个男子名。。
后来才懂。。那是爸爸给的。。哈哈。。
到后来才懂大家是住在附近而已。。
拿了电话。。就回家了。。
之后。。
我们一起去打球。。一起吃晚餐。。宵夜。。
渐渐的。。无所不谈了。。


洧弘呢？认识三个月了吧。。
第一次看到他。。第一句浮现在脑海里的话
“这个有点帅的陌生人到底从那个角落走出来的？怎么没看过？”
“你是我们学校的吗？”
“不是。。我叫洧弘。。inti来的。。"
噢。。你好。。（顾着打球，没理他了)
过后要去吃晚餐时。。才发现这小子还真有钱。。bmw还说oni。。
晚餐钱他也争着给。。算了吧。。
这人吃饭有个怪癖。。
只要饭粘成一团他都不吃。。哈哈。。



大哥哥。。在认识帅哥后一个星期认识的
那天。。帅哥带了一个个子高高的大哥哥来。。
刚巧那天全部人都没来。。只好去吃晚餐。。换地点打咯。。
一路上。。帅哥不断的介绍大哥哥。。
“他叫敦豪。。靓仔叻？好男子来的啊。。”哈哈
一路上有说有笑的。。开心啊。。
打球的时候。。发现这个大哥哥还真厉害叻。。
眼睛有点离不开了。。哈哈。。想偷师。。呵呵。。
过后。。留了个号码。。就回家了。。
这个大哥哥。。到现在都还不是很了解他。。
他什么都收在心里。。
可是。。在他身上学到的还真的很多。。


在这几个月里。。大家都有些改变。。
帅哥自然的跟美女在一起。。理所当然。。
大哥哥也经历了一段感情。。
我呀。。也在不自觉地喜欢过某个人。。
哈哈。。


我们啊。。都是排球把我们牵起来的。。
在一起的时候。。真的很快乐。。
大家一起打球。。一起说笑。。打打闹闹的。。
互相扶持。。互相陪伴。。
啊！这种日子真的很幸福！！


可是。。。


好景总是不常在的。。
当然。。这种日子。。
也要在今年的尾声跟着不见。。
这不是大家想要的。。
也不是大家能改变的。。
前途。。还是比较重要的。。
帅哥要去australia
美女要去newzealand
这里。。就只剩我跟大哥哥了。。
唉。。怎么有一丝的寂寞感。。


以后。。还有谁能借我双耳朵呢？
以后。。还有谁能载着我到处去打球呢？
以后。。当我哭时。。
还有谁的肩膀愿意给我靠呢？


美女，帅哥，大哥哥。。
无论如何。。
你们在我心中都有很重要的位置。。
无论多远。。
你们在我心中永远都离不开。。


我爱你们！！

累了吧。。

到底怎么了？
最近。。。怎么都闷闷的？
怎么做什么都不起劲？
怎么觉得目标。没了。。
唉。。怎么它不见了呢？


在写这个之前。。
应该没有人懂吧。。
脸上。。常挂着的笑容。。
有人能看出那背后的伪装吗？
很难吧。。


在人前。。总是常常笑。。
很开朗。。总是很坚强。。
在熟悉的肩膀上。。
才能发现。。泪。。
已把袖子。。弄湿了。。


他。。已累了吧。。

the word called love

love..
is a simple word form by 'L''O''V''E'
is a simple word that a 3yrs old kid also know
is a simple word contain simple meaning


it can the sweetest word


A sentence"I love U"

can make a ppl feel happy,secure..
can let a family feel warmer..
can let a friendship stay longer..
can let d world a little bit brighter..

it can be the most painful word


when..
he/she say "i love u"to d other
he/she just use "i love u" to cheat u n for other purposes
u got to know he/she use "i love u" to many other gf/bf at the same time..
u got to know u cant heard "i love u" for he/she anymore..


I LOVE U..


can safe a life..

at d same time...

it can kill a life...


If u found yr love 1..
tell him/her.."i love u"

If u didnt found it..
plz..
dont simply tell he/she"i love u"
cause..
it hurt...

About blog

Halo..just start blog..b.4 that i was thinking why all of my fren like blog.. i cant understand..but now i know why need to write blog..
Blog is a place to let u express your feelings..
Blog is a place to let u remember d memorable moment..
Blog is a place that let ppl share yr experiences..
Blog is a place that let u shout out d thing u scare to tell him/her..
Blog is a place that u let he/she c what u feel..



And today i start blog..
b.coz of..
d thing i not dare to say..
not dare to ask..
n not dare to take..

so..
i want to express it out at here..
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